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10/31/04 07:34 pm

blah blah blah long story as to why i'm on this one.

9/28/04 12:55 pm

i have a new journal. all who want to be added to the friends only list, as it is friends only, please comment on it. the address is:


not saying i'm anorexic. i wanted it sociallyanorexic but it was too many letters. fuckers.

gonna go update the new one now. later.

9/22/04 08:07 am - hahahaha

Love and Sex With Your Friends by dannygrl0129
Favorite Color
Love of your life:skipmastaflex
Best sex of your life:norman_chicago
Will make you come 1000 times:make_7_upyours
Will break your heart:big_d_beater
Best Kisser:boveroni
Best cuddler:_taken_over_
You secretly dream of:msaigcgot
But this person dreams of you:caslavka
Will handcuff you and screw you silly:pains_all
Quiz created with MemeGen!

9/3/04 03:25 pm


heres my beastly school picture. at least my hair turned out red. not that anybody NOTICED that my hair was red. 

tonight at the football game i'm going to be there with kayla and jon. jon!! i cant wait.  matt is also supposed to be there but i dont think he will.  hahahaha.  he's prolly doing drugs at the moment, and will forget about it.


we're going downtown (kayla and i) to get her eyebrow pierced. i must say that the walk is damn near going to kill me, considering i pulled a muscle in my upper thigh running w/jamie in pe. i TOLD YOU I COULDNT DO IT!!  :-P





8/29/04 12:53 am - MEATSHOE!


faaaat guy in a liiiiitle cooaaaatt.....HAHAHA I'M JUST KIDDING MEATSHOE!

theres matt in alllll his sexyyness!!  wooo meatshoe.  ow ow. you sexy beast.


this is me and my best friend hank, aka kayla.  L to R: me, kayla.  this was last winter, a night long ago that involved purple kool aid, vodka, orange juice, blonde hair dye, and an I-Zone camera.

yea, thats me.  the same night last winter.  by the way, i usually dont have one eye bigger than the other and a down syndrome kind of lip thing.

this is guch and dan, aka dan and dan.  L to R: guch, dan

the gangs *almost* all here.  L to R: me, cooter, kayla.  some people *coughKAYLAcough* say i look like i'm in love with cooter. i tend to disagree strongly. i was looking up at him saying 'smile cooter!'. i was caught at a bad moment.

i am lost without you

this be my sophmore school picture. 

and this be the lovely kayla!!!



8/23/04 10:15 am - shit.

first day of school fuckers.  i'm in the LMC during 3rd period hanging out with bovey :)  (he's going to wonder why his name is in bold..hehe...).  this morning i saw hyena and her family...oh joy.  fuckers.  i havent seen jordan yet though.  i wonder what shes thinking about me. actually, i could care less about what she thinks of me.  because i'm an asshole :)


i kept waking up during the night and looking at the clock. finally the alarm went off at 5:50 this morning and i sat straight up, looked around my dark room, rubbed my face with my palms, and got out of bed to go get in the shower.  i wont give you details about my shower because honestly, ya'll dont need to know about my showering habits.  ;-) 

the fall fun festival at regina is in 2 weeks, i think i'm going.  KAYLA DO YOU WANNA COME WITH MEEEEEE????  and i can CRAAAASH AT YOUR HOOOUSE?????  since i dont have to go camping (thank god).


camping this weekend was fucking horrible. it was boring as hell, i felt like shit, and i just wanted to go home.  i was left alone in the motorhome for 6 hours with NO FOOD, i was pissy, my batteries died in my diskman, and shiiiiii son. 


i think i'm getting bored, and hungry, and thirsty. idk what time this period gets out though.  i gave chelsie directions to study hall (FRESHIE STUDY HALL!!) and heather directions to room 209.  i feel so helpful today :)  but knowing me, this day will start out great and i'll do something retarded like get in a fight.  fuckkkkk.


why do i always get into fights?  why do i feel the need to be a badass? hankles, can you help me with this?


i want some gum.  now. but i have chorus next, and trust me, its not easy to sing with gum in your mouth. and lesbo sandles will rat me out because he hates me. oh well.  who cares! 


like kayla said:  they only hate you because they want to be you


<3 to hankles!!


i'm out, this is boring. 





8/17/04 03:59 pm


hello all you out there in livejournal land. howdy do. 

I figure I might as well tell you guys this before you all try calling me millions of times to get ahold of me.  I might not be here for the rest of the week, and during the weekend I'll be camping.  I might be going to my sisters :)  who I haven't seen in over a month.  It's going to rock.  Hopefully we can start acting like siblings once again. 

I really cannot wait for school to start. I know I say this in every post, but I'm tired of summer.  I wish I could sleep on command so I can pass the time that way, but I can't.  I was talking to my sister about how I'm bored and I have nothing to do, and she suggested going over to her place.  Which sounds like a really good idea.  So when my dad gets home, I'm going to ask him and see if he'll drive me over there.  She said she could either come get me or dad could drop me off, it doesn't matter :)

Christ, this font is bright. 

Color change.  My grandma might come soon!  But she's getting so old, it hurts her back to be in a car for long.  So I suggested coming up there and getting her, but even just sitting in a car hurts her.  So we're trying to get the money together to pay for a plane ticket for her.  She's getting so old, I don't know how much longer she's going to be here.  Which is a horrible thought.  She's been here for so long, I don't know how to think what would happen if she died.  Which I know everyone dies at one point in time.  But I'm so used to her saying she's getting sicker and sicker, and all of the time she appears to be well.  I remember when I was 8 she had "four months more to live".  That was 8 years ago. But when my dads mom died, and we went up to Michigan, I noticed that she really is looking sicker and sicker.  She has a horrible cough *well, she smokes*, and she shakes and she's bone thin.  I'm worried about her.  I hope somehow she miracously gets better. 


8/17/04 01:30 pm

There's a new wind blowin' like I've never known.
I'm breathin' deeper than I've ever done.
And it sure feels good, to finally feel the way I do.
I wanna love somebody,
Love somebody like you.

An' I'm lettin' go of all my lonely yesterdays.
I've forgiven myself for the mistakes I've made.
Now there's just one thing, the only thing I wanna do, mmm, mmm.
I wanna love somebody,
Love somebody like you.

Yeah, I wanna feel the sunshine,
Shinin' down on me and you.
When you put your arms around me,
You let me know there's nothing in this world I can't do.

I used to run in circles goin' no-where fast.
I'd take, uh, one step forward and two steps back.
Couldn't walk a straight line even if I wanted to, mmm, mmm.
I wanna love somebody,
Love somebody like you.

Whoa here we go now!

Yeah, I wanna feel the sunshine,
Shinin' down on me and you.
When you put your arms around me,
Well, baby there ain't nothing in this world I can't do.

Sometimes it's hard for me to understand,
But you're teachin' me to be a better man.
I don't want to take this life for granted like I used to do, no, no.
I wanna love somebody,
Love somebody like you.

I'm ready to love somebody,
Love somebody like you. Oooh.

An' I wanna love somebody,
Love somebody like you, yeah.

Oh yeah.
Oh, I wanna be the man in the middle of the night,
Shinin' like it's true.
I wanna be the man that you run to whenever I call on you
When everything that loved someone finally found it's way
Wanna be a better man
I see it in you yeah...

8/13/04 04:51 pm

Once again I find myself updating this thing.  Only minutes after I did the first time.  I just want to announce that I am REALLY looking forward to hanging out with my dad tomorrow :)  just the two of us. I think the last time we hung out together was last school year when I needed to go buy some school supplies.  Exciting, eh? 


I think I have to go camping next weekend :(  I tried to get out of it with the excuse "daaaaaaaaadddyyyyyyy, school starts the day after that!!!"

His reply:  "So you can get a tan before school starts."


He knows me all too well.


All next week I'm going to be absolutely bouncing off the walls, screaming like a deranged chimpanzee.  I CANNOT WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO START.  Maybe I'm mental. But it's the truth.  It's going to be great seeing everyone again, after 3 months.  A lot can happen to a person in 3 months. 

For instance, take me.  At the end of last year, I had longish blonde hair, I was around 117 lbs, and I wore my glasses all the time.   Now: I have short layered red hair, I'm around 106 lbs, and I won't wear my glasses for anything.  I do my make up differently, I have a different out look on life, I try to give everyone an equal chance, but I'm not promising anything on that one, and I just...I don't know.  Kayla, have I changed at all?

For further proof, read my entries from the end of last year, when I was either going out with Ben or Rob.  It was all the same time period.  Then read them now.  Maybe I have gotton more...I can't think of the word right now.  I'm tired. 


Bovey and I talked on the phone until 2 this morning.  We started at 9:30, and finally got off the phone at 2:04.  =)  It's like, I don't know, we just start talking and talking and never stop, because everything we say reminds us of another thing to say and then it just goes on and on from there.  I told Stephanie that we were dating, and she was like, "I KNEW you two were going to hook up sometime soon!!".  Yeah, how could she realize that when her head was always stuck up her ass?  I'm sorry, but when you come to school with so many hickeys on your neck it looks like you had a fight with the vaccum cleaner and lost, it's kind of degrading to yourself, don't you think?  And the worst thing is, I have to be like, "yeah, that's my sister."  Oh joy.  The only way she knows of Bovey is because she was in our sociology class.  Yes, the blonde girl who was once pretty and wore make up and dressed like a girl with the hickey's all over her neck and looks like she is a BATTERED WIFE is my sister.  =/


And with that, I'm out.  Bye now!

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